I try not to overshare about my life here, but it's kinda my journal, so I hope no one minds :o) Sometimes I feel like I live in 6 month increments. February of 2006 changed our lives forever, and since then it's been a bit of a roller coaster, emotionally and physically. My husband has had 3 brain tumors since then, all needing surgery and some radiation. We've gotten through with the help of God and some very wonderful family and friends.
When we found out the first tumor had grown back, we were both shocked. It rattled me to my core. I am ashamed to say this, but my faith faltered. I knew in my head that everything would work out, but I didn't believe it in my heart. I was angry with God for a while, even though I know He loves me always.
So, with every follow-up appointment, we hold our breath, cross our fingers, and hope for the best, knowing that no matter what the outcome, we'll make it thru again. My husband had another appointment today and no tumor....come back in 6 months. The clock gets reset and counts down the next 182 days.
Life is precious and I have learned several things. Invest your life in the people that matter most in your life...and let the rest go. Life is too short to be petty and juvenile and hold grudges. It's too short to not speak to family you've gotten mad at and stopped talking to. Too short to not pick up the phone or send an email.
Breathe deep and let things go.